I just got off the phone with Vaughn discussing all the needs for Jonah's health, daily maintenance and trying to protect him from the problems and damages of diabetes. It's hard to face at times. I then finished my lunch while reading Nie's post today. It brought me to tears. Her faith is amazing. How does she do it? I want to be that strong. I want to feel joy and happiness with my family every day but so often, even most often, the daily upkeep gets in the way of really feeling the happiness I want to share with my sweet family. I think I am doing something wrong but I can't quite figure out what it is. I am starting to think it is not just my housekeeping skills that are lacking but its my spiritual upkeep that needs the real improvement. Will that really help everything else?
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I don't have any answers, Stephanie. I know I try to keep in perspective that eternity is a long time and our earth life is just a quick minute of that. And we came to earth to be tested and tried. So sometimes it is just going to suck.
If you figure out the secret let me know. ((hugs)) emily
I, more often than I'd like to admit, have "down" days where everything is terrible, I'm horrible at whatever a mother is supposed to do and I'm not even really doing what I want to do, maybe I don't even know WHAT I want to do. I think Satan works on me with what I think of myself. I don't have the answers. Ya know, I've been asked what advice I would give myself before I went on the mission. I would tell my pre-mission self, "Relax." I think I need to tell myself that more often. Give yourself another chance. Remember that YW theme we chanted every Sunday, "We are daughters of our Heavenly Father who loves us..." (yes, cheesy) He does love you and knows what's going on. Sometimes that feels far away, His love, but know that WE love you and want you to feel successful. I don't believe that always means "happy".
Anyway, we love you. Give yourself another change.
Stephanie,
You have always been such a sweet and conciencious(sp?) mom. I've always admired that about you. I am sorry you are feeling overwhelmed and/or frustrated. You are great!
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